Remembering You

So tonight will be Steve's gathering... I'm making my way to West Chester this afternoon. I am sure there will be a really great turnout for it. But I'm nervous. Nervous because a) I haven't seen most of these people who are coming since highschool and b) because after tonight, life has to move on. I'm not really sure I'm ready for that. For the past 10 days I have been living in a fog. I can't do that forever. Since there is no funeral, tonight has to be the night I get closure. What if I don't? Maybe that's what I'm most afraid of.
I'll add pictures tomorrow.

My first post

I promise you I won't be great at this, but I want to write. I want to speak, to vent, to share, to grow, and I will try to do it here. If it's boring, don't read it. If you like it, I am glad.

I think for now I will start by introducing you to Steve briefly... I'll get more into details another time.

Steve died last Wednesday... February 18, 2009. Well, that's when they found him anyway.

The last time I saw him was January 19, 2009. He meant something to me that maybe I can never explain here. His death has been harder than I care to think about.

However, it's what made me decide to write here. Because in the past year I have watched things happen around me, happen to people around me, and happen in my life that I was a bit detatched from. Until now.

This blog will be my outlet... again if it's not interesting to you, then just stop reading. But if you want, stick around... I will try to make it more entertaining and less depressing soon.

Steve - this blog is dedicated to you. I love you more than you knew, and I have learned a hard lesson in your death... you should have known how much I loved you... and that is my fault.

Love,

Meghan